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Stories & Musings....>
It IS about love...
September 14, 2007
It IS about love. We do have the power to create our lives
whatever way we want.
It’s all about choices. We can choose to see through eyes
that beget more love
and and become a part of a chain reaction of love that
radiates out.
Then cell upon cell is sending out peptides or polypeptides
or something like that.
(Please see the movie, “What the bleep…?” and “The Secret”.
They are filled with scientific and religious “experts” who
can give out that scientific explanation.) The point is,
that from the very tiniest particles of our being, we
choose the direction of our lives.
For me, my ‘right’ choice is just a knowing that I feel in
my gut.
A feeling of well-being fills the me that’s not physical
but is attached to the physical.
It moves up my body and then I know I’m in alignment with
every part of the vast universe.
I always have a thirst to grasp an understanding of the
physical that is attached to the spiritual…since small kid
times I felt connected to something far greater than me and
I wanted to know the meaning of ‘me’ in all of it. It is
only at those times that I don’t feel that connection, that
I get depressed, angry and sad.
It’s when I wake up in the morning and stand in
gratefulness that I feel rich and full.
I can sing out loud “thank-you’s” all day, yet it keeps me
asking, who am I that’s thanking? And I realize that I am
thanking myself and all I’m connected to. Because I believe
that my choices about my body, my spirit and my soul are my
creations…
how I walk through my everydays…and how I feel in those
every moments…is of my own choosing. I am the creator and
the created.
In high school I tried to grasp the words of Sartre and
Nietzsche and Kirkegaard and Ginsberg and Merton and the
Bible, the Bagavagita and the Quran. I wanted to understand
predestination and angst and why I felt the way I did.
Though I still don’t understand these philosophers, I
understand what feels good and what does not. To choose
feeling good for myself, shakes up the universe as my
cells, change the next cells and the next and the next.
What if our leaders were more conscious and chose love and
peace each morning?
They could multiply their effect on creating an abundant
world where people are fed and clothed and educated to
their hearts content. A world where everyone can sleep
safely at night and do the work that makes their heart
sing. A world where we understand the 95% of us that is
the same as the ‘other’ and we celebrate the 5% that’s
different,
That is a world where there is more contentment, where
peace can thrive.
It will never be all or every person that will change. For
some reason, this seems to be a dualistic world. The
philosophers and religious scholars and scientists all say
so.
Yet, I feel the domino theory of my choices that can move
me toward feeling a oneness is profoundly effective in
supporting the ‘love’ side of duality. If I choose to be
kind, I receive kind. If I choose to be angry, I receive
angry. We do reap what we sow.
We are the creators of our lives.
In more recent times…the last 5,000 or so years, we have
been sucked into false philosophies that stress the
importance of things and land and power and greed. Though
we can’t fight the ‘fighters’ because then we will only
have more fighters, we can choose each morning to live the
day out in love…being love, receiving love and giving love.
I took a chemistry course last semester where we learned
about the structure of atoms and molecules and how
substances are formed from electrons jumping from one level
to another up and down around a variety of nuclei, creating
energy and color through their movement. If the atoms move
against something that’s not compatible, they bump and bump
and have explosive reactions. On the other hand, the
simplest of them connect their carbon to hydrogenin a
multitude of differing ways to form beautiful material
things of the world.
These tiniest particles of being seem to always look at how
they can create something more magical or some new
substance with new characteristics…not consciously like we
think, but innately being what they are. They grow and
viola, there’s more and more and more of it. The atoms go
through a process of changing who they originally were, so
they can belong to a connected beautiful, magical substance
that grows and stays strong, until or unless an atoms
weakens and they let go of the connection and sometimes the
whole chain disintegrates.
The lesson from the tiniest particles of my being, tell me
that the more I connect…choose connection…be connection…be
love, give love, receive love, the better and stronger I
feel and the easier and more fun filled my life is.
So, my choice is, in every moment to love my boys and all
my family that extends out from there. I choose to be
‘kind’ rather than right. I look in the mirror and love
myself as I love others for indeed I must really love
myself to have the ‘atoms’ of love go out and spread. It’s
actually very scientific! I can start a chain reaction of
love where I’m at.
I know that it will continue to spread until it reaches
into the infinite universe.
This is why our families, who we often seem to love less,
are the very ones we must love first. If you don’t love
yourself, you can’t be a “sender” of love particles. If
your innermost circle…your family…is not a center of love,
it can’t spread out from there.
My boys are mostly easy to love, until they get in their
‘ego’ and choose being right over being love. They mirror
my own fluctuation of choices.
My siblings are tough. Though the bond of childhood
experiences is strong, we’ve each taken those and used them
differently in the world. We often are just different
“substances” We stay loosely in touch, getting together a
few times a year for occasional dinners or events together.
Even in our ‘differences, there is a thread of love that
flows between us, still telling us we share sameness.
So, with my boys each day, I blow love gently their way,
knowing that they will spread it, if they feel it.
My closest friends are part of my circle of love…we talk
about it, support each other in it, and stand as mirrors
that we might always see what we are becoming.
As one goes out in the various layers of our life, we jump
from level to level,
just like the little electrons, we elicit energy when we
move up or down the layers…
no right, no wrong, just moving toward our choices…for me,
I choose love.
So, in each day, in each interaction I choose to say kind
words, and not judge others.
Do I accomplish that all the time…heck, no! Yet, I
accomplish it far more than yesterday. My choices allow me
to stay in great expectation for more love as I move to all
the next tomorrows.
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